I'm back...sort of

OMG!



is all i can say...



just kidding.


OMG! It's been such a long time. My last post was more than a month ago and it's the longest time that I haven't updated this thing. I was sooo busy these past few weeks and I barely had enough time for leisure. Christmas break came but I still had tons of work to do. I have to prepare for my return demonstration on vital signs (I've already practiced even before the break started so I guess that one's already taken care of) and on top of that I have to study for my loooong quizzes on biochemistry and anatomy (both lecture and lab classes). But the only thing that makes me want to cry is my anatomy requirement which constitutes to 50% of my midterm grade for the second semester. I still have a bloody case analysis to finish and I still need to fill up the 15 bloody page requirement. Where am I gonna get that much write-up in less than a week?? Buti pa 'tong blog napupuno ko kahit papano...haha!

Okay..enough cramming.


Relax.

I still have six long days to prepare for that. (God, who am I kidding!?)


Anyway, these are random pics that I failed to post:

My friends and I during our EK escapade

Frog dissection with my lab partner
(what's inside the jar with the yellow lid? Oh. That's the frog)


"christmas lunch" with the ozaetas (I'm wayyy over there at the back! See my head?)

only three stupid pictures?? Well, I don't have enough time to upload some more. Haha! I still have to research for the course and prognosis of fractures. =(


......but!



I promise to catch up sooooon. (I don't know when "soon" is)


That's all for now.


I hope to finish whatever it is that I need to finish before school starts again. Wish me luck!

Killing time

I'm starting to hate this day. Stupid! Stupid! I'm currently spending my time in our school's computer lab because we don't have anphylab class. We were supposed to have our Anatomy ang Physiology lab today, 7:00-10:00 am, and guess what? We don't have a prof yet! We waited in the laboratory for almost an hour..for nothing! Then I had to go to the office of the dean because we don't have a prof. He said that they haven't hired the new prof yet. Ugh. The dean was very nice, though.

Anyway, it's still very early and our next class begins at 2pm, so that means that I have 6 bloody vacant hours today. Define bored! Why is it that everytime I have something important to do, i almost always don't have the time to do it? And why is it that whenever i have all the time in the world, I can't think of anything to do except to wallow in self-pity. I feel so lonely. I decided not to go home and come back again for my next class since nobody's home today. My friends are not yet here, we have different schedules, you see. They all belong to the same lab classes so I'm left alone in my different schedule. It's a good thing that my other classmate, Kierstine, also have the same bloody situation like me. All her friends also belong to a different class. We're both left-out so we've decided to stick together during days like these so that we won't have to wander around the campus all by ourselves. Lucky me..*rolls eyes*

Not what I expected

I just got home..I know, it's a bit late than my usual dismissals. Well, I have to get used to it. We have a lot of subjects that end at 7:30 and 8:00 pm. But it's exciting though, even if it's a little scary to still be out in the streets at night, specially nowadays. And it's also difficult to get a ride during the late hours of the night, even on weekdays. Dunno, but it wasn't like this before..
Okay, I'll stop beating around the bush. Let's proceed to my main topic: BioChem lab--the subject I've been loathing for ever since I read the groupings posted on our bulletin board.

I spent my afternoon sleeping by the way. I was trying to think of something better to do while waiting for my next class, but unfortunately, I couldn't think of anything. The classes just started yesterday so we really have nothing to do yet (except for a couple of assignments which I have already finished due to my boredom yesterday). So I decided to sleep. I dozed for like 2 and a half hours or so. I really can't remember. Anyway, I was able to come to school early with a spare time to check the newly processed books in the library. I found interesting ones by Nicholas Sparks. Unfortunately, the librarian said that they are not yet allowing books to be borrowed for home-use. What a bummer! Anyway...

Okay, I said a while ago that I'll stop beating around the bush..heheh..okay, I mean it this time.

BIOCHEMISTRY LAB

I've been dreading this subject. I know that it's only a 2-unit subject but lab subjects are not as easy as they seem to be. You need skills together with your knowledge. When I entered the laboratory, I already saw what seems to be teacher's stuff placed on top of the table. I froze. The lab instructor is here. Am I late? Well luckily, I saw that the classroom is almost empty except for four very punctual students: Mommy Beth (my 48-year-old classmate), Lara, Joyce and Kierstine. I sat next to Kierstine at the 1st table at the back. But after sometime, I decided to sit next to Lara who is at the front. Then another classmate came in with a bad news: "Si Ms. Berana daw and prof natin sa biochemlab."

What?? Ms. Berana? You've gotta be kidding! Please tell me it was a joke. But it wasn't. It was confirmed when she entered the lab 10 minutes early to ask my classmate to borrow an overhead projector. I know her. I see her all the time. I've been hearing so much horrible things about her. I know her because she's my former guidance councelor's wife. She was my cousin's lab instructor during the first semester. Donna said that she's very strict when it comes to her requirements and she gives low grades. She's the very opposite of my very jolly and affectionate chem1 lab instructor, Mr. Tapay. They say that she's mataray, strikta, walang sense of humor. Because of that, I immediately went back to my previous seat at the back. I'm really not in the mood to grab the teacher's attetion on our first day of lab. It was way too scary!

When the class started (she's very punctual, by the way), the laboratory was embraced by a deafening silence. My classmates were also feeling what i was feeling at that moment: pure terror. Well, she didn't give us a bad impression. I really didn't find her mataray. My fear wasn't caused by her presence but by all the unpleasant things that my friends used to tell me about her. I can't see any hint of her katarayan at all! She doesn't smile at first, and she doesn't show any hint of the sense of humor I was dying to see..but as the time passed by, she started giving us some jokes while she was making us recall the laboratory rules and procedures. Her frustrated attempts to make up a decent joke wasn't so bad after all. In fact I appreciated it! I really don't know why, but I just felt that i had to force a little laugh so that she's not lugi with her pathetic joke about the eye-wash. But then after a while, the fake laugh felt real. I just knew at that time that I can learn to like that teacher.

She had a long discussion about the importance of biochemlab blah, blah, blah and I was getting a little bored. My seatmate, Stanley, took out his gum and offered it to us. I thought it was ridiculous to eat in a class of a "terror" teacher, but after refusing the watermelon-flavored gum, I got one and ate it. Stan, Kierstine and Camille ate theirs too. Chewing the gum was difficult because we only did it when Ms. Berana isn't looking. It was fun actually. Not the experience of eating chewing gum, but the experience of breaking a rule. I am not used to breaking school policies. Haha..After her discussion is over, she grouped us into our *gulp* permanent lab partners. I silently prayed for a better lab partner than the one I had last sem (well, levy is a sweet girl but she really is far from being the ideal lab partner). It seems that God was really challenging me at that time because my lab partner turned out to be one of the most quiet students in my class. She is also..umm..let's say..not my "dream lab partner." But I guess I have to accept it. It's final. I guess i just have to work harder for a decent grade this semester.

We still have so much time before the class ended so she gave us a test. It was just an evaluation whether we have learned from our previous laboratory subject. It wasn't that bad. But I was hoping to get a really high grade for our first test but I forgot some of the answers and I had wrong spellings. Oh well, past is past. Move on. Haha..We were dismissed 45 minutes early. But it was 6:45 and it was already dark outside. Fortunately, I managed to go home safely.

2nd day-2nd sem

Ok, this is by far, the worst moment of my 2nd semester. I am currently at home typing this..half an hour ago, i was at school in my Filitwo class which ran from 7.30-10.30 am. I still have my biochem lab class this afternoon. So why am I at home?? Because freakin' biochem starts at 4.30pm. What am I supposed to do for six hours?? So I decided to go home and take a nap, but I was afraid that due to my exhaustion from my filitwo class (3 hours of Filipino class can be really exhausting!), my "short nap" will turn into a deep sleep and I'm afraid that I won't get into my next class on time. I don't wanna be late. I've never been late in my classes ever since i started schooling.

Anyway, I hate this schedule because it's so weird. I'm not used to going home from school and then going back to school again for my next class. I mean, if I stayed at school, what am I supposed to do there??? Rot myself in the library??? Ugh. And by the way, what really pisses me off in this kind of set-up is that our lab classes (anatomy and biochem), were divided into two separate groups. What's wrong with it?? It's because all my friends belong to group 2 while I'm the only one left to rot alone in group one. I really want us all to be together. I wanna be with them too! Specially with Donna, because were supposed to go home together. Wala na akong kasabay magbyahe pauwi!

By the way, our Clinical Instructor announced that we are going to have clinical exposures this semester. Clinical exposure is another way of saying that we're going to have hospital duties..magduduty na daw kami! As early as first year! Whaatt?? OMG! During the first semester, we're already hearing rumors about this, but I never thought that it will be implemented right away. I mean, i know that we'll have to do it eventually, but I never thought that it would be sooner than I thought. The idea of having a duty in the hospital didn't really sink in to me until now. While I was listening to that announcement, I feel like someone's yelling in my head: "This is it! Nursing na talaga 'to! OMG!" At first i was excited, but it was suddenly replaced by a feeling of fear--fear that I won't do good in practical nursing procedures. I know I'm quite good when it comes to academics and written exams, but i don't know if I can survive the real nursing world. What if my skills weren't enough? What if I fail my return demos and practical exams? That thought got me into thinking that "Do I really wanna be a nurse? Am i ready to be one?"

The answer, of course, is NO. I know it deep inside because of the fear that's gripping my heart right now. But then again I thought, "Hey, I'm only in my first year as a student nurse! Of course I'm not ready. Who is??" I suddenly remembered the very purpose of being in school. I'm here because i have to learn. I am here because I am not ready YET. I am yet to discover what my abilities are, to enhance them so that it may be useful in the future. Who knows, I might just be a good nurse after all! Right now, all I have to do is do my best and get rid of this fear inside of me. I have to start learning how to think positively.

Quickie Post

okay..since I only have a few minutes left to use the computer (mom wants me to sleep early), I'll try to make this as quick as possible.

Back to school tomorrow. 2nd sem na..is that scary or what?? Anyway, I'm pretty excited for tomorrow..yeah, I changed my mind. I guess I really do want to go to school after all. Hehe..Why? Obvious reason why students are motivated to go to school: Allowance. Yup. I said it. I want my allowance back. Haha...Well, that's not the only reason. I also wanted to see my friends again and of course, I wanna see the outside world. hehe..After more than three weeks of hibernation (a.k.a. Sembreak), I'm finally gonna be able to go experience life in the outside world (I stayed too much at home during the sembreak. Eat-Sleep-Blog was my life).

Ciao for now. I guess I won't be able to update this thing starting tomorrow specially if schoolwork starts to pile-up. I'm really gonna miss my "sembreak-mode."

Well, that's it. I told you it was quick. Well, gtg. Long day tomorrow!


P.S.
why is everybody claiming to be Edward Cullen's wife??
hehe..just wondering.

To edward cullen's "wives": Peace!! V(^_^)V

Back to normal..soon T_T

"Okay. Don't panic."

That's what I said to myself when I woke up this morning. I really was in a bad mood to start the day. Why?? Because it was only then that I realized that I only have less than three days of vacation. On Monday, my life will be back to normal. I will be facing something that I've been dreading ever since I started this hibernation--school. So why am I dreading school?? 4 words: hectic schedule, difficult subjects. Yeah, I'll be dealing with those 3 days from now. My 2nd sem schedule is a goddamn torture. Aside from having Sunday as my only day to rest (we have saturday classes, damn!), my classes also end at the most ungodly hour. Early classes, late dismissals and a saturday class. How lame is that?? To make things worse, I would have to deal with bloody Biochemistry and bloodier Anatomy&Physiology. Just thinking about those new subjects makes tiny droplets of blood flow down from my nose. Nosebleed! We have biocem lecture, biochem laboratory, anatomy&physiology lecture and anatomy&physiology lab..whew! I can't hide my nervousness.

So there it is..I guess as early as now, I have to condition myself for some serious late night studying if I still want to be a DL.

So much for now..I gotta spend the remaining 3 days of vacation doing what I have to do..and good luck to me for my second sem in college! T_T

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"Sometimes I tend to look at the moon and I tell myself even if we're miles apart, every night when we look at the sky we see exactly that same moon..."
--stat nya sa YM yesterday..yee! I just can't help but post this here.

Online Dillemma

I was up at 3:something am today because of our online enrollment. I wanted so badly to enroll early so that I wouldn't have to line up at the cashier to pay my tuition. After my countless desperate attempts to open my account at the e*wizard, I ended up typing this. What's worse is that when you go to the site, there is something terrible written. The website posted a sign which says:

Note: SERVER IS DOWN FOR MAINTENANCE

It was soooo frustrating! I had the sudden urge to scream at my computer, but I reminded myself that it's 3am and I could wake up the whole house with my early morning dilemma. It sucks! Today is supposed to be the day of online enrollment for freshmen and the site is still under maintenance! UGH. How lame is that?

But come to think of it..I am still luckier than my other block mates who still haven't viewed their grades yet. The online viewing of grades also suck (btw)! Online viewing of grades was last october 30 and some students are still finding a hard time to access their accounts on the school website. They're probably banging their heads now.

Honestly, I'm really not in favor of this online thingy. Why do they have to change the system when the old one still works. They say all of these is for the development of our school..but look at what happened?? It was supposed to make our lives "easier" so that we wouldn't have to come to school to see our grades and to enroll. But if you ask me, I'd rather take the hassle to come to school, endure the heat and line up together with hundreds of students than to have my computer open for 24 hours because of desperately trying to open the e*wiz account. The former involves more effort but it also gives you the assurance that you're gonna get your grades and be able to enroll eventually while the latter gives you no assurance at all.

When I first knew about this online stuff, I was excited to try it. It gave me a positive outlook about my school and the huge development that it's making. I know that it's not just a step further but a huge leap for the school. I mean, how many universities in the Philippines enable students to access to their grades and enroll at the comfort of their own home? A few maybe. The introduction of this technological innovation brought along a promise of a better life (huh?). But when it was implemented, the result was otherwise. But I guess it just needs more time to improve. We're just an amateur at this anyway.

I just hope I can enroll for the next sem. Right now, all I want is to open my account, get done with this online enrollment, print the godforsaken assessment form, and take a bath so that I can go to school later to pay my tuition. When I'm done with it, I could reward myself with a peaceful mind knowing that Im sure I can move on to the next semester. And perhaps I could finally let myself sleep the whole day.

These are barely true..wala lang 'to!

How will you seriously answer someone in the following situations given?

what if someone (STRANGER) insults you and tell you this:

1. Ang arte mo!

who cares? Even the care bears don't care!

2. mas matalino naman ako sayo!

tinatanong ko ba??

3. crush ako ng crush mo.

so? Kayo na ba?

4. am bobo mo pala sa math!

Okay lang, nurse naman ako..ndi engineer! haha

5. bilisan mo naman!

ikaw kaya jan ang mabagal!

6. ang sungit mo!

sa'yo lang kaya ako masungit!

7. cute mo magsmile.

really? (tapos sasampolan ko ng killer smile..hekhek!)

8. takot ka ata sa kin eh?
why would I be scared? You're just a kitten!

9. Mas mahal nia ko!

so? Sawa na ako sa kanya..pede ba!

10. Ambababa namn ng grades mo!

Bakit sau ba mataas? Anyway, why do you care so much about my grades? Get a life!

WHAT IF SINABI SAYO ITO NG MAHAL MO?

1. crush kita

don't worry..it'll pass! (haha! joke! speechless xempre)

2. Hindi kita mahal

sino bang nagsabi saung mahalin mo ako? Hayaan mo lang namang mahalin kita. Yun lang. (haha..ang drama!)

3. Mahal na kita
*fainted*

4. pakopya namn ng assignment

umm. Sorry, hindi ako tutor e. (why would i let him copy? What impression would i be giving him? Baka abusuhin ako. Haha. I hate cheaters!) <<--charing!

5. crush ko yung friend mo

sino..si Theo or si Jake?? Gay ka? OMG! (haha!)

6. pwede patabi sa upuan mo?

naku, madumi jan! Dito ka na lang sa lap ko..(haha! Ang L ko!)

7. cute mo magsmile.

*smile ulit...then bat my lashes* (nagpacute lalo?? Haha)

E KAPAG PARENTS MO ANG NAGSABI SAYO

NITO?

1. Umuwi ka ng maaga.
ok po. (sabay adjust ng relo..gagawing late ang relo)

2. marunong ka pala kumanta?

you noticed! Finally! After 17 years of existence..napansin mo dn!

3. Hindi ka pwedeng pumasok sa klase!

Thanks mom!

4. Hindi ka pwedeng magka-BF/GF

Fine! Then I won't tell you when I already have one. Pwede namang di legal e. Bkt kailangan mo bang malaman un? Hehe (My mom would've killed me before I'm even done saying this!)

5. maglinis ka ng bahay..

pwedeng ung study table ko lang?

6.bakit ang bababa ng grades mo?

Kala nyo madali ha! Kayo ang mag TheoFun..tingnan natin kng cnong mas mataas sa'tin!

(as if naman gagawin ko talaga to sa magulang ko..di ko kaya no! Haha!)

Relieved!

Yey! I saw my 1st semester grades already via E*Wizard. Wala akong dos!!! What a relief. TheoFun wasn't that bad...it was higher than what I expected. What a relief!

And the award goes to..

Once accepting this award, the rules are as follows:
1. Put the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who awarded you.
3. Nominate 3 other blogs.
4. Add links to those blogs on yours
5. Leave a message for your nominees on their blogs.



This was given to me by Pearl and Mimi


I nominate:
>Ka Silyas
>Larissa
>Paula

Parade of Nations

Yesterday, my cousin represented her class as Ms. South Korea in our school's celebration of the UN month. It was a competition participated by the elementary students. My sister and I went to watch and also to take pictures of her. Anyway, here are some pictures that we've taken:

That's my cousin, Maya striking a pose in front of her house. The long braids were fake hair by the way..hehe. Do koreans really do their hair like that?

The winners of the contest with our school president Brother Manuel Pajarillo, FSC. They really have spectacular costumes. My cousin won 2nd place by the way. The girl with the big orange costume was my favorite. She really stood out amidst the other contestants. I think she was Ms. Bolivia

Here are some of the other contestants. They've all got wonderful costumes (and boy, do they spent a lot of money on those costumes!) but the criteria includes poise and grace and of course, the choreography of their gestures.

Ms. Korea, Ms. Singapore and Ms. Vietnam

Another reason why I watched was because Aubrey (of PDA little dreamers) sang during the program. She studies in our school. After the program, we grabbed the opportunity to have our picture taken with her.

Taken outside the Sentrum after the program.

senseless

PICK THE MONTH YOU WERE BORN IN…
1 ( Jan) - I ran naked with
2 ( Feb) -I shot
3 ( Mar) - I stabbed
4 ( Apr) - I killed
5 ( May) - I jumped
6 ( June) - I smoked with
7 ( July) - I ran shirtless with
8 ( Aug) - I banged
9 ( Sept) - I needed
10 ( Oct) - I robbed
11 ( Nov) -I slapped
12 ( Dec) - I cuddled with

PICK THE DAY YOU WERE BORN ON…
01 – Bunny Marie
02 – Lyn Z
03 - Regret
04 – Bob Bryar
05 – Elena Lee
06 - Krista
07 – Donald Way
08 – Girl
09 – Donna Way
10 – Mikey Way
11 – The Demolition Lovers
12 – Gerard Way
13 - Katmandu
14 - Fear
15 - Alicia
16 - Lou
17 – Pete
18 – My Chemical Romance
19 – Big Worm
20 – The Patient
21 - Katlyn
22 – The Black Parade
23 – Ray Toro
24 – Todd Price
25 – Mother War
26 – Matt Pelissier
27 - Jamia
28 – Mark Webb
29 – Matt Cortez
30 - Helena
31 – Frank Iero

PICK THE COLOR SHIRT YOU ARE WEARING…
White – Because Mother War told me to
Black – Becau se Frank got stepped on
Pink – Because I kidnapped Bob’s cat
Red – Because I wasn’ t supposed to touch Ray’s hair
Brown - Because Gerard is mad at Bert
Polka Dots – Because Mikey got Lasik surgery
Purpl e – Because Frerard hypnotized me
Grey – Because Fear & Regret told me to
Other – Because I don’t approve of Ray’s reading material
Green – Because Bob gave me Mikey’s phone number
Orange – Because I unleashed the bats
Turquoise – Because teenagers scare the living shit out of me
Blue – Because Gerard can’t make me stay
Tie dye- Because My Chemical Romance fell off a cliff
None- Because it’s easy peasy , pumpkin peasy , pumpkin pie… [ I’ll let you finish]


This is mine:

I needed Matt Pellisier because I kidnapped Bob's Cat.

(senseless indeed!)

Another chapter has ended

The 1st semester is over...and I survived! I thought I wouldn't make it alive (hehe..just kidding). College is CRAZY..but I have to admit it, it's kinda fun..alright, enough pretensions..College is SUPER EVERYTHING!

yeah well, whatever. I'm really not good at making great introductions..so I'll just cut the crap and go straight to the point. Let's travel back to the 1st semester...

***Student's name: Garcia, Patrizze Mara Ozaeta
>>>okay..so there's really nothing to narrate about my that..it is, after all...my only "legal" name here on earth..Well, except if I add "gonzales" to my name 10 years from now..but it's another story. *wink*

***Student number: 2008032918
>>>That's my student number. In college, your student number is as important as your own name. It's like your identity. Anyway, there's a very interesting story about my student number. Way back on my enrollment, my student number wasn't posted outside of the registrar's office so I had to go to the admissions office to get one. It really was a very long process. You have to fall in line together with the other students who doesn't have their student number (just like me) and then you have to take instructions from stupid student assistants (and I tell you, they're not easy to talk to. They easily get irritated, most of them are slowpokes and they give you wrong instructions! I hate them! To be honest, I really could've gotten myself a student number without their help, honestly!) So anyway, after a long and tiring process, I eventually got my student number so I proceeded to the other building for the online enrollment. At the venue, I found out another devastating news: my student number is invalid because there are only 9 digits in it. It's supposed to have ten digits! Gggrrrr! I almost cried upon knowing that. I felt like cursing every person in the registrar's office, until I saw my sister's friend. She helped me change my student number so I won't have to go back to square one.

***Course: Bachelor of Science in Nursing
>>do I really want to take up Nursing? Honestly, NO. Well I think that 70% of Filipino students nowadays who took up this course didn't choose it because it's in line with their interest but because they are: a.) attracted by the popularity of nurses abroad b.) forced by their parents or c.) they wanna get rich. Well, I'm one of them (although I'm not going to tell you if it's a, b or c..hehe). I really wanted to take up journalism or creative writing when I was in elementary. Then I changed my mind..I wanted to take up Law instead. But my mom doesn't want me to take either of the two because she said that lawyers and journalists live a very dangerous life. The job itself is life threatening (whatever!). Well, it's my mom who influenced me to take up Nursing (not that I don't really like it), but it was still me who made the final decision. I'm the one who's gonna study anyway. But to tell you the truth, that course isn't so bad after all. Well, except for the fact that there is a very strict dress code for nursing students. Our clinical instructors are meaner than the discipline officers themselves.

***Section: G1C
>>To tell you the truth, I wasn't really thrilled when I knew what block I belonged to. My initial reaction was disappointment because I wanted to belong to block-A together with Monica, Pauline and Kenneth (my highschool classmates). The moment I found out that I belonged to block-C, I really thought that my life was over. I don't know anybody. I guess I just have to start making a new life with strange new people. But I guess God really wanted me to belong to G1C. Three weeks before the classes started, I found out that I have a cousin who belongs to the same class. Okay, so that made me feel much better, at least there's one less strange person that I have to meet on the 1st day of school (although at that time, we don't really know each other that well). First day of school with my new class was really lame. I'm not good at making friends let along starting a decent conversation with one of my new blockmates. I honestly thought that this school year is gonna be the worst that I had in 13 years and that I was going to be an outcast. It turns out pretty well: I am not an outcast and I had new friends. Among the first people I got close with were vanessa and donna (the cousin that I was telling you about). We all came from the IS so it wasn't hard to make a conversation. At least we had something in common. Then we started changing our names to trixee (me-patrizze), vanee (vanessa) and charee (donna).


My 1st semester schedule:

Monday:
7:30-8:30 >>Comski1>>Ms. Donna Torres (this subject is really lame!)
8:30-9:30 >>GenPsyc>>Dra. Felina Marasigan (terror teacher..she makes me really nervous!)
10:00-11:00>>Algebra>>Mr. Daryl Magpantay (I still hate math!)
11:00-12:00>>FiliOne>>Ms. Ruth Vicencio (why do we have to study filipino anyway?)
1:00-4:00>>RelEd11>>Mr. Cielo Delica (luv the prof! luv the subject!)

Tuesday:
7:30-9:30>>PhysEd1>>Mrs. Emily Babasa (I suck at P.E.)
10:00-11:30>>ChemLec>>Mr. Christopher Tapay (no comment)
2:00-5:00>>ChemLab>>Mr. Tapay (3 hours of torture-my lab partner doesn't talk that much)

Wednesday:
7:30-8:30 >>Comski1>>Ms. Donna Torres
8:30-9:30 >>GenPsyc>>Dra. Felina Marasigan
10:00-11:00>>Algebra>>Mr. Daryl Magpantay
11:00-12:00>>FiliOne>>Ms. Ruth Vicencio
1:00-4:00>>NSTPone>>Ms. Richelle Pangilinan (charity time!)

Thursday:
10:00-11:30>>ChemLec>>Mr. Christopher Tapay
2:00-5:00>>ChemLab>>Mr. Tapay (zzzzz..)

Friday:
7:30-8:30 >>Comski1>>Ms. Donna Torres
8:30-9:30 >>GenPsyc>>Dra. Felina Marasigan
10:00-11:00>>Algebra>>Mr. Daryl Magpantay
11:00-12:00>>FiliOne>>Ms. Ruth Vicencio
3:00-6:00>>TheoFun>>Ms. Chavez/Mrs. Mendenilla (worst subject ever made by man!)

Okay..so that's my daily routine for the first semester. It's not really what you might call "hectic" but it's not a typical froshie easy-does-it schedule either. To tell you the truth, my schedule kinda reminds me of my high school schedule. You go to school at 7 and go home at either 4 or 5. But I learned to love this daily routine of mine. I got the hang of it at only 3 weeks after my 1st day of class. Some of my subjects were a little boring, but sometimes it just depends on my mood whether I feel like listening to my prof and jotting down notes like a responsible student or simply removing my glasses, not paying attention, scribbling non-sense at the back of my notebook and daydreaming until the bell rings. There are easy subjects like RelEd (religion) and Comski1 (english), there are boring ones like chemlec and chemlab, but there are also tough ones like algebra (my blockmates are gonna screw me for saying this), PE (pls. don't laugh coz I really hate PE) and of course, my major subject: TheoFun (yeah, I know. Weird name huh? I thought it was supposed to be FUN, but it's the complete opposite of Fun!)! TheoFun is the only subject that I can't quite understand the purpose of. It stands for Theoretical Foundations for Nursing. We study about the different nursing theories "that can be helpful" for our nursing practice in the future. I honestly don't get it! Anyway, there is also one subject that cannot be categorized to neither easy nor difficult..General Psychology. The subject is pretty easy itself, but what makes it so difficult is dealing with the prof. She's a doctor and she's like 60 years old--she gets easily irritated, very strict, thinks we have to know everything and sometimes, very irrational. But I learned to like her by the end of the semester. She's really smart by the way (well she should be, she's a doctor!).

Events worth remembering:

1. 1st day of school (duh!)
2. Acquaintance party
3. My first time to wear my complete white uniform (it was really uncomfortable at first)
4. Recollection (gave me the opportunity to know my friends better)
5. Maranatha elimination round (we got in for the finals!)
6. General Psychology quiz bee (I studied my ass off! We never won, but the experience was priceless. I enjoyed it)
7. Gabriel Garcia Marquez' Love in the Time of Cholera Quiz bee (I won-2nd place..yey!)
8. Aeromarathon practices at Mapen's place
9. Aeromarathon competition (we were the champions!!!)
10. Jeepney moments with Donna
11. Failing a 25-item algebra quiz (who cares? nobody passed that bloody quiz anyway!)
12. Watching a movie with my cousin w/o the permission of our parents (we went home at 9pm bec. of that)
13. NSTP second deployment (I read a story to kids w/ malnutrition. It was entitled: "Si Joey at ang gulay gang")
14. Anti-sexual harrassment self defense training (Donna was my sparring partner! How's that for memorable?)
15. Singing "Close to You (by the carpenters)" during my lab exam in chem (yup! I sang in front of my chemistry class! Weird, huh?! Did i mention that I sang the wrong lyrics? **why do birds fall down from the sky?? **Haha!)
16. My everyday struggle to tie my hair in a neat bun every morning (and after my PE class)
17. Volunteering to use a fire extinguisher during a fire safety seminar
18. ChemLOVE moments (I love that class!)
19. Finishing Experiment 8 in chemLab without breaking the crucible cover (there were only two groups who didn't break their crucible cover. We got lucky!)
20. NRP days (no rice policy)
21. Having a surprise visit from a very important person after one hell of a day at school (now that's really worth remembering!!)

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My first semester in college seemed very fast. I never imagined it to end this quickly. But they say that your 1st year, 1st sem in college is the most difficult part of college (really?), but it is also the most memorable one. It's my first taste of independence. The first semester is over and I can't wait for the second semester (we already have anatomy&physiology and Biochem--we're gonna die!). As of now, I'm enjoying every bit of this semestral break, after all, we won't have a summer vacation anymore because we have classes in the summer.

Pics:

vanessa, me and donna


before my theoFun class: Rica, Vanee, me, Donna-POT and Mapen


NSTP deployment


Finishing my bloody FiliOne papers


Our building has an aquarium below
the floor(COOL!)-check out my reflection!


during the aeromarathon competition


my legendary test paper (but we took a remedial test afterwards)


My blockmates, my family

Loving Math!!!

Reminiscing the times, I had upward and downward slopes in life
All was going negative until I saw the sum and the product
I removed all other variables until it became an empty set and placed only one variable
Suddenly, like a postulate, I knew I was right. You became my universe
Surprisingly, unlike the root of all negatives, this is not imaginary
All of this was real
Remembering who I was, I was always a fraction
Observably, you came and made me whole
But everything was too late; the inverse came to me, leaving me with 0
Lest, I stay as a constant who is definitely loyal though you are in other planes
Ending the separation of terms, I never found any of the factors
Seemingly reunited, I, like the value of pi, had non-terminating happiness fill my heart
Visibly aware, I intersected with negative emotions which pushed me away
I traveled everywhere to get the finest union of sets I can find to make you mine
Lacking for variables, I endanger myself of failing the subject I love
Losing hope, I never thought of cheating you for once
All I wanted was to complete your square so that good factors would come about
Longing for thy infinite love, I stayed positive inside of the roots
Otherwise all these shall only exist in my imagination
Boasting with all the sets of variables I can possibly have, I only made myself irrational
Over-all, life had all positive values except 1; I never won your heart, summing up to 0
Senseless, I thought, like any number raised to zero you would always be the only one


(I found this in my friend's friendster account. Pretty cool, huh?)

Fun with Pictures

Last Friday night, I found a very interesting site called Photofunia.com and I had a lot of fun with pictures. It's easier than photoshop..hehe. Anyway, here are some of my crazy creations:

Billboard model wannabees

Happiness bursting inside the tube

They're all calling out my name!

If a picture paints a thousand words....

Super model sisters

An ex-boyfriend who finds it hard to get over me

That's vanessa, me and donna in the gallery

SEVENTEEN

Ten beautiful sunsets to go before I turn SEVENTEEN( Why sunsets? Because I was born while the sun is setting at 5:47pm on september 26, 1991. At that time, my sun was only beginning to rise while outside the hospital, the sun is preparing to set. How I love that irony in my life!). I gotta seize those last ten days that is left for me to act like a totally carefree teenager. Honestly, I don't really want to turn SEVENTEEN. It's something that I've been dreading since the beginning of September (which used to be my most awaited month of the year). I wanna stay sweet 16 for the rest of my life (so does anyone of you know where the fountain of youth is?). Anyway, SEVENTEEN is just a year away from 18, and when you're SEVENTEEN, you'll be dreading everyday that passes because you'll get closer and closer to being a full-grown and recognized citizen of this country...and I definitely don't want that. That's probably one of my weaknesses, growing up and welcoming changes.

In ten days, I turn SEVENTEEN. There’s nothing particularly earth-shattering about SEVENTEEN, no magical ring to it, to a 17th birthday. Nothing's really special. When you’re a girl and turn 13, it means bras and the right to play the “it’s my time of the month” card. Sixteen means first kisses and maybe a nervous sweaty-palmed boy holding your hand. Eighteen you get flowers and a ballot; 21, a job and tax returns and the license to get drunk in North America. But anywhere in the world, turning SEVENTEEN essentially means turning SEVENTEEN.

Ten days from now, I'll be SEVENTEEN, and I'm almost an adult. And being an “almost-adult-in-ten-days” doesn’t give any easy answers to why I can eat in McDonald’s with a barefoot 4-year-old knocking on the glass window. I remember writing this blog, when I turned 16, that I wanted to save the world and slay dragons. I’ve met several dragons, have realized that the world does not need or want saving, and that sometimes, terrible things happen to ordinary people.

In 10 days I turn SEVENTEEN, and have more questions than answers. I’m going to cut this short, before I ramble on about hating P.E. and my hectic schedules and KC Concepcion and why people should stop wearing lace-trimmed leggings under pink mini-skirts, but I’m getting old in 10 days, and that’s only 10 days left of irresponsibility. Next week, I will be rational and reasonable and relevant, today, I plan to walk in the rain, eat fastfood and salve my conscience with a few coins in a plastic cup.

So what's new?

narinig nyo na ba ang latest about me??


1. I'm finally reading the most talked about book (and mocie) of the season..yup..I'm reading Twilight. I can't get enough of Edward Cullen and Isabella Swan!!! It's so addictive!

2. I got kicked out of of the maranatha choral singing competion! Well, I didn't actually got 'kicked out' because I volunteered not to join in the singing and chose to be one of the propsmen instead. I had a conflict with my schedule because:

3. I was chosen to represent the class on the Psychology Quiz Bee. It's gonna be the same date and time as the Maranatha singing competition..so I guess I have no other choice but to quit the team. Anyway, we (maggy, riza and I) are supposed to study the whole General Psychology textbook and we have to do it fast..and I mean FAST because the quiz bee is gonna be next week! Is that scary or what???

4. I got a high grade in my practical exam in PE. Well, that's new! As a matter of fact, that's very rare. I never get high grades in PE calss

5. I got a perfect score in my midterm exam in RelEd. Yey! I wasn't expecting it, really!

6. I watched a movie with my cousin and and it was really late when we got home. She was scolded by her mom, bu luckily, I wasn't! (my mom doesn't know..ssshhhh!)

I missed my other half so much!

I saw her. At last. After almost three months, I saw her again today. My cousin who's been one of my closest companions back in high school. She's like my other half. She visited me at school today (good thing we had our 3-hour break). She still has that same aura. Same long hair, same height, same delicate eyes, same dimpled smile, same fashion statement (shirt, pants, havaianas and her esprit bag), same soft voice and same familiar scent...the only change that I saw in her is the first thing I've noticed when she arrived...her nail polish. My cousin wears nail polish! What a sight! haha..It's not like she can't paint her toes, it's just that I'm not used to it. I've never seen her with colored toe nails before. Well, it's just a teeny bit of detail that I suddenly noticed out of the corner of my eye.

We met twenty minutes before my next class. She texted me this morning to ask what time my break is and informed me that she's going to lasalle this afternoon. We were having algebra at that time and I was in the middle of answering a mathematical problem. My phone vibrated inside my bag and I can't fight the urge to read the message. I was surprised to see her name and my heart did a little flip when I read her message. I read it again to make sure that it was what it is. I got excited but I said to myself, "I just hope she isn't kidding me."

At lunchbreak, I texted her again. She said she was gonna leave manila at 12:30. Twelve thirty? Thirty in front of a twelve??? She has got to be kidding me. 12:30pm. She's not gonna make it in time before my next class. I computed for her travel time and decided that maybe she can make it in time before 3pm..so I waited for her...

1:00..

1:30..

where the hell is she??

2:00..

still not here..

2:30...

okay, so maybe she can't make it after all..

2:41...She's here! OMG..She's really here. I can't believe it! I stood up, walked half-way through her and instinctively gave her a quick hug and sway. Yup, that's the way we hug..we sway sidewards while hugging. I dunno, but it just happens whenever I hug her, we do a little sway. Anyway, she was with Raissa (our former classmate) and Fides. We didn't really talk that much not because we've got nothing to talk about or because of the fact that I have a TheoFun class in less than 20mins...I dunno..It's just so weird that she's finally here in front of me. After all those months.. I can't think of anything to say (which is SO not like me because I used to talk so much when I'm with her) so I just mentioned about the new renovations in the school (yeah, I really suck at starting conversations, as a matter of fact, senseless conversations is my expertise..kidding). Anyway, I asked her about school..those kind of stuff..i complained about my school and my stupid uncomfortable uniform and my dull professors. She told me about her most difficult subject which is math. Well it must be true because she's pretty good at math. Definitely better than me. Hehe..

4 minutes before three, I took the initiative to proceed to my next class (which really sucks because i really have so much more to tell her!). The farewell wasn't dramatic because i know that I'm still gonna see her. Her house is like..25 steps away from mine. Plus, it's her semestral break (I think). When i arrived at my next class, the prof still isn't there. As a matter of fact, we had to wait for her for 1 1/2 hours only to hear that the class has been cancelled!!! Damn. I shouldn't have gone there and I should've spent more time with camille instead. Oh well, what else can I do..she already went home by the time I told her that I was dismissed early.

But I'm still totally, utterly and undeniably happy to finally see her again... It made my day complete and it was something that i really looked forward to.

I hate PE

Not feeling well today. Terrible backache. Stiff neck. Sore throat.

We had our PE class yesterday and I was sooo wasted after that. We did kickboxing...and I tell you, IT IS NOT AS EASY AS YOU THINK IT IS! It looks like fun when we watched it in our film viewing last week. The 'kickboxers' look like they're having so much fun. Anyway, the routine was so long. At first it was fun, but as we go on to the routine, I felt like I was gonna die. It starts with basic punches and kicks but as the routine progresses, the steps become more and more complex. Different weird combinations were made and the beat of the song was fast. As I was watching the demonstrations on the last part of the routine, I was like: "You gotta be kidding me!" and "No way! I'm not doing it!"...But what can I do? If I chose not to participate, my prof's gonna kick me out of her class. I was really gasping for breaths and I felt like I was gonna collapse any minute. We were supposed to memorize it because we're going to have a bloody practical exam next Tuesday. Shit. After the class, my face was red and my PE shirt was wet with sweat. My hair is sticky and smells like..like..I can't even describe it. Let's just say it's smells like a mixture of shampoo, hair cuticle and sweat! At that time, I really wanted to go home and take a bath but my next class is freaking chemistry. To be honest, at that time I really felt like cutting classes.

After 3 hours of hell in PE class, chemistry was next. If PE drained my whole energy, then chemistry drained my brain. Yup, I'm officially wasted! My chem prof kept on talking about ionization energy and electron affinity but I can't exactly process what he's saying. I thought he was speaking in Chinese! His lips keep moving but all I hear is blah, blah, blah... Good thing he has his powerpoint presentation so I spent the whole period copying because that's the only thing that I'm capable of at that time. My mind can't function well due to exhaustion.

When I came home, i fought the urge of lying in my bed because if I did, I would immediately fall asleep and probably end up waking next morning..so I quickly finished all my assignments first, did my usual routine before sleeping and went to sleep. I skipped dinner because I wasn't hungry.

The next morning (this morning) was the worst part. I found it hard to get up because I have a terrible backache. It was difficult to take a bath because I can't move my arms very well. I felt as if I were beaten my 5 men. I suddenly remembered my mild dextroscoliosis. I got worried that my spinal column got even worse. I hope not because i don't want to wear a body brace (I know I'm gonna look stupid in that!). Stupid PE!!! If taking a bath was difficult, then going to school was even more difficult. I have to bring my thick college algebra book with me and it's as is I'm carrying another person in my bag. The elevator wasn't fuctioning so I had to use the stairs. My room is in MB501..it's in the bloody 5th floor. I was near tears when I reached our classroom. I felt like i just went hiking on Mt. Himalayas...

I hate PE..

My back still aches up to now...

Anyway, gotta go..I still have to finish reading in TheoFun. Ciao!

Tears of God

(the rain on my windowpane)

"Ate Analyn, bakit ba nagkakaroon ng ulan? Saan yun galing?"

That was my question to my nanny almost 10 years ago. Why does it rain? Where does it come from? It was raining hard outside and i can't sleep(I was supposed to be having my siesta). At that time, my nanny was sorting out the laundry. She thought about my question for a while, and then answered:

"E kasi umiiyak ang Diyos. Yung luha nya, yun yung ulan."

I was struck by her answer. I imagined the scenario in my head. I wasn't convinced by her answer so I asked another question:

"Bakit siya umiiyak?"

"E kasi maraming bad. Pag maraming bad, nalulungkot siya"

"E bakit ang dami-daming tubig-ulan? Ganun kadami ang iyak ni God?"

"E kasi nga, Diyos siya. Pag Diyos ka, ganun talaga. Malaki siya e."

I didn't bother to ask her how she knew how big God was because I can see that she's already loosing her patience on me. As a child, I was always fond of asking so many questions. Anyway, I was supposed to be having my siesta so i stopped asking questions about the rain. I was convinced by her answer anyway. I was still so young back then and I believed in everything that the adults say. Whenever my classmates ask me the same question, I would give them my nanny's answer and they, too, would believe in it.

I believed at this reasoning for many years of my childhood and it wasn't until I entered 3rd grade that I found a more logical reason for this phenomena. We were then studying the different kinds of clouds. The cumulous clouds are the ones that appear nearest to earth and they are also the ones that bring rain. The clouds keep the rain and when the rain is too much for them to carry, they release it in form of rain or snow. At that time I replaced the idea that the rain are God's tears because there is a more scientific reason than that. Besides, how can you explain snow? Is it also a form of God's tears? The thought of snow coming out of God's eyes made me laugh.

Come 6th grade and I had an even more scientific reason for the occurrence of the rain. We were studying the water cycle of the earth. The water from the oceans evaporate and turn into very tiny droplets of water or water vapors. Those tiny droplets of water accumulate to form clouds. When clouds become very heavy and there are too much water for the clouds to bear, it falls in the form of rain. The process is called Precipitation. The rain falls back on the earth (some of them become ground waters) and water flows back to the oceans. The cycle repeats itself. Now that's a more logical approach! A bit complicated, but more reasonable. The idea that the rain are God's tears was a myth.

Okay, so now that the question is answered, I've no more doubts about it...but not until I was in Level 10 when I started to teach public school children on our CARE program (CARE stands for Cathechethical and Religious Emissaries). CARE is a requirement for all Level 10 students and it is a part of our Christian Living subject in La Salle. Anyway, I was done teaching the parable of the prodigal son to some 3rd grade students at Cumba Elementary School. We still had a couple of minutes left before i dismiss them so I allowed my students to go and play outside. I also agreed to play with them. The minute I said that, it started to rain. I saw in my students' faces a hint of dissapointment. They were so looking forward to play "jerbase(?)" with me so I decided to ask them a question, the same quetion that I asked 10 years ago to my nanny: "Bakit kaya umuulan? Saan nanggagaling ang ulan?"

The class became quiet, then a little boy raised his hand, stood up and answered with so much confidence:

"Galing po yun kay God. Umiiyak siya para magkaroon ng ulan kasi po mahal niya tayo."

There was it again..God's tears in form of rain. Once again, I was surprised by that answer but this time, I was surprised in a different way. I was about to disagree with him and tell him about the water cycle, but out of the corner of my eye, I saw a chart with illustrations about the different kinds of clouds. They were already studying the clouds so how come this boy gave me this answer? I decided to skip the lecture about the water cycle because I was too curious to know more about what's inside his head. To tell you the truth, I was touched by the answer because it came from the heart of a little boy who was just probably 6 or 7 years old. I gave him a follow-up question (but not the same follow-up question that I gave my nanny):
"Bakit ganun? Sa tingin mo, paano naging sign ng pagmamahal ang pag-iyak para umulan?"

I thought that the question was too much for a little boy. I thought that it will take him some time to answer my question. I was surprised for his quick response:

"Umiiyak siya para magkaroon ng ulan kasi mahal niya po tayo. Pag umuulan, nadidiligan ang mga halaman at nakakaligo ang mga kalabaw. Nagkakaroon tayo ng maraming tubig para magamit para maligo at mag-toothbrush. Pag walang ulan, hindi tayo mabubuhay"

I was speechless. His answer was so simple (unlike the lecture about the water cycle and the clouds). It gave me a new realization and a new perspective on life. The rain really does come from God. As a matter of fact, every phenomenon that occurs in nature all come from God. What happened to the part about the water cycle? It is still (and forever will be) a general truth, but I guess it is also just a part of God's brilliant plan for his creations. Every single thing that happens here on earth happens for a reason..just like the rain. Right? ...The dismissal bell rang.. The boy was still standing, probably waiting for my response, so I told the class:

"Oo nga, tama siya. Tsaka isipin nyo na lang, kung walang ulan, e di hindi natin makikita ang ganda ng rainbow, di ba?"

The boy, quite contented and proud of what he did, sat down with a smile on his face. I ended our class, said goodbye and left the room. It was still raining outside but our adult leader fetched me with an umbrella and walked with me to our vehicle. I went back to our school with an amazing new perspective that came from an innocent little boy. I just hope that when this little boy reaches the 6th grade and learns about the water cycle, he doesn't lose this idea about God's tears in form of rain.

"And when it rains on your parade, look up rather than down. 'Coz without the rain, there would be no rainbow.."

-Jerry Chin