Pampadami lang..hehe

1. What was I doing 10 years ago?
10 years ago? Hmm..I would be 6 years old. Umm..I dunno, I guess I'm at home playing..or sleeping..

2. What are the 5 things on my to-do list today?

Make a status report and academic concerns report for our class (just a draft), Finish pages 44-46, experiment 6 on my ChemLab manual, Read Love in the time of Cholera, attend Mass(anticipated mass), make to-do list for tomorrow ^.^

3. Snacks I enjoy:

Ice cream (preferably Hazelnut-Brownie or Cookies 'n Cream), Pringles, Mojos & Cream Puffs

4. Place where I live:

Batangas...Ala Eh!!

5. Things I’d do if I were a billionaire

Travel the world, buy lots of clothes and gadgets, send myself to medical school abroad (heehee) and have my own car..

Confessions of a Frustrated, (trying hard-to-be-normal) N.E.R.D.

Okay, now I'm gonna talk about the topic that I hate. Yung topic na buong buhay ko nang iniiwasan at itinatago....Namnamin nyo 'to dahil once in a lifetime lang ito..Hindi na mauulit muli...

NERD--nakakaasar ang word na yan. Parang ang baduy ng ibig sabihin at ang sakit matawag na ganyan. Pero kahit na ilang beses kong sabihin na hindi ako ganyan, ipinagpipilitan pa rin ng iba na isa akong certified nerd at medyo natatamaan pa rin talaga ako. Medyo lang ha! Hindi naman kasi ako yung tipong aral nang aral na hindi na nasisikatan ng araw. Hindi rin ako yung tipong lahat ng sinasabi ay may references sa almanac, encyclopedia o quotation from a famous person. At lalong hindi ako yung nerd na nagsusuot ng pantalon na nasa dibdib na yung waistline sa sobrang kataasan at nagsusuot ng salamin na 1 inch ang kapal ng frame at 1 million ang grado ng lens (180 lang ang grado ko) at mala-einstein ang buhok at puro braces ang bibig (for one thing, wala akong braces!). I guess I'm a normal type of geek. Geek/Nerd in the sense na grade-conscious. I have lived with that title for more that half of my life. Mejo naiinis na nga ako jan e, sa totoo lang talaga. Gusto ko na rin magbago.

Nung unang araw pa lang ng klase, sabi ko sa sarili ko: "College na! Easy-easy na lang ako. Goodbye na sa pagiging nerdy-braniac cream student. Wala nang cream class e. Less pressure, zero competition." Akala ko kaya ko. Akala ko madali. mahirap din palang baguhin ang nakasanayan mo nang routine simula nung bata ka pa. I thought I can live a carefree college life. Yung bang tipong papasok ka na walang alam, incomplete assignment at aasa na lang sa kung anong mangyayari sa araw na ito. Xet, hindi ko ata kaya. The mere thought of going to class unprepared and knowing that you haven't studied for a long quiz makes my stomach turn upside-down! Actually, I've tried it na. I can't describe the feeling. Parang natatae ka na nasusuka na nahihilo pag naririnig mo ang bell at pumapasok na sa room yung prof mo. Anything can happen ika nga. Ang sama sa pakiramdam. Pinagpapawisan ako ng malamig! Hindi lang ako sanay. Pero natanong ko din ang sarili ko, bakit ang ate ko na minsan ko lang nakitang mag-aral e parang walang kaproble-problema sa buhay samantalang ako na paranoid lagi na may nakalimutang assignment ay parang wasted na wasted araw-araw??? Attitude lang ba talaga nya yun at natural na sa kanya o deep inside ay namomroblema na din xa?

Anyway, highschool pa lang ako, gusto ko nang takasan ang sitwasyong ito. I wanna free myself from all the pressures and high expectations that I get from other people. Yes, it's great to be called "matalino" and a straight A student. Masarap ang feeling na makita ang pangalan mo na nasa itaas ng honor list at masarap din mapabilang sa top class taun-taon. Pero parang ang laki ng kapalit. Ano 'tong kapalit na 'to? Well, yun lang naman e ang ma-stranded ka sa buhay na puro aral para mapatunayan mo ang sarili mo at ang palaging maabot ang expectations ng mga tao lalo na ng nanay mo at mga kamag-anak. Mahirap din pala ang pinasok kong buhay. Yung tipo ng buhay na hindi ka pwedeng magpabaya sa grades mo dahil baka kung anong sabihin ng ibang tao. Siguro yung iba sa inyo sasabihin na hindi naman importante ang mga sinasabi ng ibang tao, pero trust me, it does matter. It matters a lot. Hindi pwedeng hindi ka maaapektuhan sa mga sinasabi nila, kahit konti lang.

Dati kasi, isa sa mga pinakakinatatakutan ko ay ang mawala sa cream class next school year kaya pinagbubutihan ko. Ayoko ngang malaglag! Baka kasi pag napalipat ako ng ibang section, itanong kung saang section ako galing last year. Pag sinabi kong galing cream, baka itanong kung bakit ako nawala dun. Masakit din un a. Maliban na lang kung talagang sukang-suka ka nang makabilang sa cream section. Pero ngayong college, parang ganun ulit. Nung unang weeks ng klase, hirap na hirap ako. Una dahil wala akong ibang kakilala na mga kabatch ko. Konti lang. Tapos, palaging pinagdidiinan nung ibang IS na galing akong cream kaya ivinovolunteer nila ako lagi. Feeling ko tuloy lagi, obligado akong maglider-lideran. Nakakapagod din minsan yun no! Feeling ko gabi gabi na lang ako may ginagawang report e!

Ang sakit din minsan kasi ang daming connotation sa pagiging "cream." Ano-ano yun? Boring daw, seryoso, nosebleed pag nagsalita, mayabang, rule abiding citizens to the highest level, control freak(huh?!), super competitive, zero v, tahimik(god, this is so funny..kung sino mang nagsabi nito e hindi pa nakakapasok sa classroom namin), manang (at manong?), grade conscious(mejo) at ang pinakamasakit..hindi raw tao. Minsan, narinig ko ang dalawang babae na naguusap sa cr pagkatapos ng NCAE namin:

Girl 1: Ang hirap ng NCAE! lalo na yung entrepreneurial skills! Xet!
Girl 2: Oo nga..nangamote ako! Pero sabi nung kaservice kong cream, okay lang daw.
Girl 1: Hahaha..Xempre yun ang reaction nila. Cream e. Hindi naman tao yung mga yun.
Girl 2: Oo nga, ano kayang kinakain ng mga yun. Beyond normal na e. Utak na tinubuan ng katawan..
(nagtawanan ang dalawang bruha..)

Nung mga panahong yun, inaayos ko ang pagkaka tuck-in ng sando ko. Napatigil ako dun. Mejo natawa. Pero nasaktan din ako. Kung hindi kami tao, ano kami? Hayop, halaman? At ung statement na beyond normal..HELLO??? Kumusta naman un? At xempre, ang pinakanakapukaw sa aking atensyon, ang pagiging "utak na tinubuan ng katawan" namin. Yuck ha! kadiri naman..Well anyway, what I'm really trying to point out is that we're also like everybody else. Teenager din naman kami. Mahilig gumimik, marami ding kalokohang ginagawa at higit sa lahat, totoong tao. Diber?

Anyway, masaya sa cream class. Mahirap nga lang minsan. Pero ngayong desidido na akong maging "normal" na tao, saka naman ako lalong namotivate mag-aral. Bakit? Hmm..secret! Haha..Saka na ang chismisan. Parang inuulit ko nanaman ang cream days ko. Ang pinagkaiba nga lang, I'm no longer with the rest of the "gang."

Haay, ang chaka! Parang there's no other choice but to stick to what you've been used to. Nagbago nga ang environment, pero ang attitude, hindi. Kanina, nagpunta ako sa mga lola ko (sa mother's side) tapos sabi ni Ate Pepay, "Aba, himala! Laumabas si Mara! Bakit, wala kang pinagaaralan?" Ayoko ng lagi akong ginaganon. Gusto ko, tratuhin ako gaya nga pagtrato sa iba. Hindi ko naman kailangan ng maraming papuri e. I've had enough of that. Too much, actually. Oo, masarap ang feeling ng napapalakpakan pag highest ka sa exam. Pero mahirap din naman yung yun lang ang tingin nilang lahat sa'yo. E pano pag may bagsak ako? Imbis na gumaan yung loob ko e lalong sasama dahil sa comments nila. Sa totoo lang, kahit hindi ako nakakarinig ng isang salita, alam ko kung anong reaction ng iba. Tulad nung 74% ko sa quiz sa TheoFun (anak ng tokwa naman kasi e, hindi pa ako ipinasa!). I felt bad hindi dahil dun sa grade mismo(well, just a little bit) kundi dahil sa reaction ng iba. May nagtanong kasi na kaklase kung anong nangyari. Sabi ko nahirapan ako. Sabi nya "owwws? ikaw? nahirapan?" Sabi ko na lang hindi kasi ako nakapag-aral ng ayos dahil sa PE. Gusto ko sanang sabihin na "Bakit, wala na ba akong karapatang bumagsak?" Ayoko lang kasi talaga ng may mga nagrereact nga ganyan kapag may mababa akong grade. It makes the feeling worse! But I guess hindi na nila yan mapipigilan. Ewan ko ba!

Anyway, yan ang aking mga dinaramdam sa buhay. Isa yan sa mga enigma ko. Gusto ko nang maging easy-go-lucky pero hindi ko naman kaya! I guess I'll be like this forever. Hanggang sa paglaki ko, madadala ko na to. Sana lang hindi na ako kasing paranoid ngayon pag laki ko. As of now, I'll just be contented of who I am and what I can be. I don't have to force myself to become somebody else.

O xa, napahaba na itong blog entry ko. Ang sarap pala ng feeling na mailabas mo ung matagal mo nang tinatago. Till here na lang. Inaantok na din me...*yawn*

Till next time!

I need to put dots in my life

Last Song Syndrome:
Why do birds fall down from the sky everytime you walk by...
Just like me, they long to be close to you.

Yup. The Carpenters pa rin

But now listening to:
Charmed Life-Leigh Nash

That's because I just watched "Uptown Girls" on dvd.

^^^

I knew there was something wrong with this day the moment I woke up.

It wasn't bright and shiny. I tried thinking of the faces that will soon greet me in school later on. Perked up a little bit, pero wala padin eh.

I just felt like something was wrong. Something was missing.

On the way to school, I kept on changing the songs in my phone. Which is uncommon, because I usually finish the song before changing to the next track. Ngayon wala pang kalahati kroo na kagad. It just felt different.

The feeling became stronger during the first period. Comski1 time. I couldn't think properly. And then the feeling grew when the prof started to give out out test papers..My grade was fine. Fine doesn't mean excellent. Well, let's just say it's really not the kind of grade that I usually got way back when I was in IS. But I can deal with that.

Okay. So things didn't go out very well during TheoFun. The test papers were given and I got lucky. A grade of 97 is quite satisfying. But to tell you the truth, I was kinda dissapointed after taking the test in TheoFun. The test was way too easy!!! I worked my freakin ass off so that I can fully understand that subject. Every single sentence that I've memorized weren't even included in the test. So much for the late night cramming! Hmp!Well, I'd rather not talk about it.

FiliOne time! Well it wasn't that bad. My involvement in the singing contest paid off because our teacher generously gave the participants an additional 5% in the midterm exams. My grades were pulled to a 96. I was really happy. Just last week, I was so dissapointed after taking the exam. The test was way too difficult. I felt that all those times that I was answering that godforsaken test, I was only relying on pure luck. I worked my ass off the night before the test just so I can finish the lessons in FiliOne which is two inches thick!! Quite exaggerated? Hell no! I wish I was kidding when I said that. But I really thought that I was doomed in Filipino. Hey, maybe I can get a job as a fortuneteller. Ang galing ko palang manghula! Haha..

The day drifted by. OK naman somehow. Alam mo yun. The feeling just disappeared because it was covered by all the laughing and the noise.

Word of the day: nojiko no misuki (the name of the food I ate at lunch today).

Come CWTS time..it's my last subject of the day. Well, I don't really consider it as a subjects nowadays. Why? Let's just say I really don't get it. All we study at this course is time management, how to be effective individuals, having a good self-image, patriotism, blah, blah, blah, fret, fret, fret...YAWN... I don't get it! Why do we have to study those things anyway. Like for example, having a good self-image. We discussed the topic for like 3 hours straight! I was already fighting the urge to sleep. The thing is, self-image is not something that you have to learn from your professor in a classroom setting. It's something that is not supposed to be imposed in the minds of students. You are the only person on earth who can mold your own self image.

Dismissal time. Wala na. Space. Out.

On the way home, I received a text message from HIM. I read it. Pause. Pause. Pause.

It took me a minute to process the message completely. It was open-ended..putol ung message nya. Anu yun, fill in the blanks??

I am anxious. What could this be about?

^^^

On the contrary though. I know what I'm feeling. But I don't know for certain why I'm feeling that way.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm confused. I am hurt.

I'm confused. And really hurt.

I'm scared because this whole thing that I'm dealing with may never end. May never have a period. Puro comma. Walang period. Kahit exclamation point tatanggapin ko.

And then the other thing. If I leave, the feeling follows me. When I'm there, I lose all interest.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Grabe.

Is there no way to hide how I feel? Or no way to show how I feel? Why can't I release this feeling(whatever it is!). My life used to be an open book (well, that way way too long ago). Now, I'm nothing but a secretive wreck.

We are free in this world.

But hell man. I don't even know what I'm doing with my freedom.

Too much happened. Time to go. Time to move on. Pero ang hirap eh. You can't work on things alone.

That's it. I need farrreaking closure. But not to end things completely. Just to begin a fresh new chapter

YOU NEED TO PUT THE DOT IN THIS PARAGRAPH-LONG SENTENCE!

Dear Mom

Dearest Mom,

Adolescence is a very critical period in a person's life. It isn't easy, you know. Specially when you try to make it so difficult (peace!). Anyway, this letter isn't only for my mom. This is also for the other mom's out there with daughters whose ages range from 12-18.

Let us have our dramas. Teenage years are emotional years--and a confusing one at that. We're not quite kids, but we're not yet grown-ups either, so when I come home with a problem, no matter how silly it may seem, if we say it's a big deal, believe us, IT'S A BIG DEAL. Sometimes we won't talk because we don't think you'd understand. Sometimes, we just need you to listen. Other times we just need you to put our world back together with ice cream instead of I-told-you-so's. Try to put yourself in our shoes if you can't take us shoe shopping.

Let us have our dreams. Right now, we want to be rock stars, models, actresses, not for the fortune, but for the fame. We still know what it means to reach for the stars and dream big. We can't quite grasp the idea of "settle" yet. Let the world teach us that someday. For now, president, Olympic gold medalist, supermodel, you name it, we can still become it!

Let us know we're beautiful. We learn what's beautiful from celebs, boys-and you. Even before we knew who Ashley Tisdale is, we wanted to look like you. But you're not too happy with the way you look so we started wondering, if you're not pretty like we thought you we're, maybe we're not pretty either. It's hard enough not to be the "crush" of our "crush," but if you don't tell us that we're beautiful, then someone else might tell us we're not--and we'll believe them. We'll change for them, try to be more like them, and compromise who we are just so we could be beautiful for them. And once our self-image is shattered, it's so hard to put back together again. So come on mom, say it, even on-especially on-days is not even close to being Vanessa-Hudgens-like: "You're beautiful."

We're like you but we're different. I look a lot like you, I learned a lot from you, people often say I'm a mini version of you-but mom, I'm not you. I have my own interests, opinions and even values-sometimes they're just like yours but sometimes they're not. Differences don't have to be all bad right? You and I can have our disagreements like what I should wear, who I should listen to, and what will make me happy in life-but we can still be friends. You may hate my music, my friends, my choices, but they are my choices for a reason. Talk to me, find out why I think such and such is the coolest thing on earth, or why I like going to the mall with my pals on a school night, just this once. You don't always have to say yes--you're still my mom--but first, hear me out before you say no. All I need from you is respect. Respect that I'm an individual. Respect that I'm growing up to be the person I want to be. You may not always understand me, but I'll be forever grateful if you try.

(inspired by an article by Shiloah Matic)

B.O.R.E.D. and missing someone.....

This day is soooo Bo-o-o-ooring!!!! Katatapos lang ng midterms, I have a lot of free time and yet I can't think of anything fun to do. There's nobody to hang out with. My sister still has a test, my cousins are all in school, my friends (I don't know where they are), and my mom's at work. This morning, I was planning to spend this day reading Gabriel Garcia Marquez' book "Love in the time of Cholera" because it's our requirement after midterms (I think we're supposed to make a book review), but I can't get myself to read! I'm not usually this lazy when it comesto reading. It's just that the last time I've read the book (I think I was already in page 144 or 154??) was like a month or two ago! At that time I don't have much time to read because I was busy. But now that I've got all the time in the world, I seem to lose the interest. I can't even remember what bloody page I'm at. I already forgot the story so I guess I have to read it all over again!

Anyway, today is the birthday of one of my closest pal/cousin, Camille. I f*cking miss that girl so much! The last time I saw her was last vacation. She's now studying in Manila and doesn't go home here in Batangas quite often. I really miss being with her. I am not used to go to school without her. She's like my buddy and now I feel that a part of me is missing. She seems a million lightyears away (but we still find time to communicate thru texts and IMs, although it isn't quite that often since we're both busy). I just miss her sooooo much. Life isn't the same without her..

(This photo was taken during the school fair..I think this was a stolen shot.
Camille is the one wearing stripes.)

Just look at the brighter side..

Okay, twas a long time since my last blog entry! Where to start?
Oh, midterms!!! I just had my midterm exams.. so now, I'm free as a bird! Finally! Haha.. Anyway, the exam was okay..okay doesn't mean difficult, but it doesn't mean that it's easy either. There were easy ones like math and TheoFun, but there were also bloody ones like FiliOne (why the hell do we still take that freakin' subject, marunong naman tayo mag-Filipino!?!), RelEd and GenPsych. Well, FiliOne really absorbed all my energy last night. I stayed up until 2.30 am to finish that damn subject. I thought that it was enough, but the test was just so damn crazy!!

I can really feel college life now. I can feel the freedom, the excitement, the difficulty, the pressures! College is not a bed of roses, you know! But surprisingly, I don't feel that much bitter right now (at first I feel really bad about my college life). As a matter of fact, I'm enjoying every single minute of it, even my late night cramming.

I mentioned above that I feel "bitter" about college. It's because I feel left out by my friends. They are all in manila while i'm left here in Batangas. Last year, I was dying to go to UP Manila!! I saw my name on the list of UPCAT passers and got a letter of acceptance. At that very moment, I was sure that I'll be studying in UP manila next school year..but unfortunately, my mom never allowed me to study there so I stayed here and took up nursing instead. I was heartbroken because of that. Nursing in De La Salle Lipa wasn't quite what I expected for my college years. Actually, I really don't mind living in a creepy old claustrophobic dorm and working my ass off when I study in UP. As long as I'm free and independent in a university that's not in Batangas, I'll be happy. Well, that was before. I might as well forget about it..'coz this is my life now...

I'm still in the process of fitting in and finding my place in DLSL, but as of now, I'm totally, completely and absolutely happy of where I am now. College is not so bad after all. The knotty feeling in my stomach everytime I go to my first class in the morning was finally gone. I guess it's just my destiny that I ended up studying here. I may not be like my other friends who seem to be totally enjoying their independence in other universities, but at least I also get to have a world of my own here. They say it's fun to be away from your home because you get to taste freedom, experience a totally different world, and meet new people. Yeah..good ol' freedom indeed! But staying isn't a hindrance to live a life like that. I also have my own freedom now, I experience a totally different world (yeah, definitely!) and most of all, I met really great people. I belong to block 3 (or block c) and my blockmates are awesome!! My new friends are a lot different from the friends that I used to hang-out with back in high school. They're free-spirited, carefree, fun and "crazy-beautiful" people. Sometimes, we get a little bit "over-the-fence" when it comes to having fun but it's okay because they gave me a whole new experience and perspective in life. Back in high school, my days were spent with assignments, projects, and never ending quizzes. I belong to the top class and I was afraid to be left out so I work hard. But now, there is no more top class. Everyone is arranged randomly so there's no need for me to cope up with others so that's another way of being free. Free from competitions, free from high expectations and most of all, free from quick judgments. But that doesn't mean that I don't work hard anymore because
like what I've said, college is not a bed of roses. As a matter of fact, I work harder. Nursing can be so "toxic" sometimes (I always use that expression nowadays..TOXIC!!).

Well I guess this is just the brighter side of not having the chance to be a centennial freshman at UP (even though I still feel frustrated up to now). Every event in our life, may it be good or bad, has a purpose. We just have to look at the brighter side of everything. ^_^

Just updating

The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of activities. I had a couple of "first times" actually. One is my first time to join a singing competition (wow! my heart still does a little flip whenever i mention that!). Yes..a 100% real singing competition! I'm happy to say that this time..I'm not even kidding! (Ok, OA na..haha) It's just that I still can't believe that someone like me who has zero talent when it comes to performing on-stage has been given a chance to sing a piece by David Cook. Well, it's not actually a song by david cook, it was just based from his song "always be my baby." The fun part is that the song was translated in Filipino. Surprisingly, it turned out to be pretty damn good! Haha.....Ok, confession time! I wasn't singing alone, we were a group...but it can still be considered as my debut performance. LOL! Unfortunately, we didn't win the contest (even though I thought we were so good and I expected that we would bag the 2nd place).. but it's okay because it was worth the shot. But the best part is that some people actually thought I sang very well!!! And believe me, they're not just saying that to boost my confidence because I can feel that they actaully mean it. Can you believe it??? Me??? A good singer??? Get out of here! Haha.. So anyway, here's the lyrics of the song (I don't have the copy w/ me while i'm typing this bec. i can still remember every word):

Tayo'y naging isa
Sa sandaling panahon
Akala ko'y di magwawakas
Na ikaw ay akin lang
Gusto mong lumayo
Hahayaan kita
Dahil alam ko sa puso ko
Pag-ibig nati'y di magwawakas

Mananatili ka sa buhay ko
At ganun din ako sa iyo
Di mo ako matatakasan
Dahil ikaw lang ang aking mahal
At maglalagi
Di mabubura damdaming ito
Di mo ako mapapasuko
O, dahil ikaw lang ang aking mahal

Di ako iiyak
Di kita pipigilan
Kung gusto mong lumayo
Di ako tututol sa iyo
Sigurado akong magbabalik ka din
Dahil alam ko sa puso mo
Pag-ibig nati'y di magwawakas

Mananatili ka sa buhay ko
At ganun din ako sa iyo
Di mo ako matatakasan
Dahil ikaw lang ang aking mahal
At maglalagi
Di mabubura damdaming ito
Di mo ako mapapasuko
O, dahil ikaw lang ang aking mahal

Okay, so my second "first time" is my failure in PE class. Yes, I wrote it down correctly..I failed a practical exam in PE class. Weird, huh? Some kids get A's in PE..and i'm definitely not one of them. What can I say?? I suck at PE. I'm not much of a dancer, let alone an athlete. I was shocked for about two minutes, and then after that, my life went back to normal again (it is very unlikely for me to recover fast after receiving a failing grade in any subject). So what? It's only P.E. class for god's sake! 2 units (not that i underestimate 2 units, but let's face it..failure in a 2-unit subject is not something to be suicidal about)! Well, let's admit it, everybody has their own weaknesses. I guess I just have to try my best on out midterms exams next week. Good luck to me!!!!

How Cartoons Helped Shape My Life

Whenever I reminisce about my childhood days, I always remember the toys I once had, my playmates, the games we played, bathing in the rain, and of course--my favorite cartoon shows. What kind of child wouldn't love cartoons anyway?

I can still remember way back when I was just a kid, I would always watch my weekday morning cartoons on TV before I go to school (I belonged to the afternoon class in my school). I'm pretty sure that (almost) every kid who was born during the late 1980's to the early 1990's knows Cedie: And munting Prinsipe, Heidi, the twins at St. Claire, Julio at Julia, Bubu Chacha, Doraemon and Mojacko. Well, they're just some of my long lists of favorite cartoon shows when I was a kid (most of them are the tagalized cartoon series in ABS-CBN), but my most favorite of all, probably the one that made the greatest impact in my life, was Princess Sarah (the tv series was based on Frances Hodgson Burnett's novel, A little Princess) . Very typical, huh?

The main character was of course, Sarah Crewe. She's a smart, pretty, kind-hearted and strong willed little girl. Sarah was once a very wealthy kid but she was forced to work as a scullery maid in a boarding school when she was orphaned. Her character inspired me very much because even though she was being maltreated in most of the episodes by the cruel headmistress Miss Minchin, she still has something to smile and be happy about. Watching her as a kid taught me important values in life like courage, selflessness, humility and hopefulness. As a matter of fact, I still look up to her even now. She has this amazing ability to love even if it seems as if everything has been taken away from her. Her famous line that I haven't forgotten yet was:

"Every girl is a princess. Even if they live in dusty old attics,
dress in tattered rags, even if they aren't pretty or smart or rich,
they are still princesses as long as they believe in themselves.."

Another cartoon character that has influenced me when I was a kid was Judy Abbott. She is a thin, clumsy, red-haired teenage orphan who was given the cance to study in the prestigious Lincoln Memorial High School thru a scholarship from Jervis Pendleton or "Daddy Long Legs" as Judy would call him. She is a hard-working student and, just like me, she is an aspiring writer. She actually influenced me to start writing. Little did I know that watching Judy Abott on tv would prepare me for this crazy, mixed-up (but very exciting) stage in life called adolescence. I can relate to her in many ways like my passion in writing, my fascination in boys (and curiosity on why they are the way they are)...and of course, my never ending hunger for adventure. At the end of the story, Judy's "Daddy long legs" turned out to be her 'special friend' Jervis Pendelton. The two of them got married after Judy's high school graduation and that only proves that true love comes in a time you least expected it.

Cartoon Shows have truly been a part of my life. They were my companions while I was growing up. Their stories and characters have molded my little mind and have made a big influence in my life. They may just be simple fictional cartoon characters from TV, but they have been a part of who I am now. They will always remind me of my happy childhood and that I will always be a kid at heart. Princess Sarah and Judy Abbott have made their mark on me and they will always have a very special place in my heart.

Just updating...

Real name: Patrizze Mara Ozaeta Garcia
Nickname: Mara
Zodiac Sign: Libra
Male or Female: Femmie
High School: De La Salle Lipa
Short or long hair: Medyo long..hehe
Are you a health freak? not so much
Height: 5'2"
Do you have a crush on someone? uhh yessss
Do you like yourself? of course, why wouldn't I?
Piercings: ears..that's all XD
Right of lefty: Right-handed (but I used to be a lefty until i reached the 1st grade)

FIRST*
First surgery: nothing
First piercing(s): ears nga! haha
First best friend/s: vernice, camille, carmina, yosh
First award: 1st place--speech power fest
First sport you joined: Table tennis
First pet: lovebirds..or was it a dog? Can't really remember
First vacation: cant remember o.o
First concert: never been
First crush: KK—first crush when i was in my first grade..oink. o.o

CURRENTLY*
Waiting for vernice and camille to go OL …
Drinking water
Listening to Edison Lighthouse's Love Grows
I’m about to post this...

YOUR FUTURE*
Want to be rich..haha. (Prankahan na!)
Want to get married in the future, when i already have a job..haha
Careers in mind: nurse/doctor..and a part time writer

WHICH ONE IS BETTER*
Lips or eyes: eyes
Hugs or kisses: Hugs
Shorter or taller: Taller
Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
Nice stomach or nice arms: both? XD
Trouble maker or hesitant: a little bit of both XD

HAVE YOU EVER*
Kissed a stranger: nope
Drank bubbles: Yes
Lost glasses or contacts: yes
Run away from home: I never even imagined of doing it, im not stupid…i mean where would i sleep if i do run away from home haha..
Liked someone younger: yes
Liked someone older: yeah..two years older
Broken someone’s heart: yes
Been arrested: Nope
Turned someone down: A lot of times
Cried when someone died: yes
Liked a friend: yes, but i think he didn't like me back

DO YOU BELIEVE IN*
Yourself: I have no problem with that
Miracles: yes
Love at first sight: nope. I just don't get it!
Heaven: Yes
Sex on the first date: nope..the idea is stupid!
Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY*
Is there one person you want to be with right now? YES
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time: NO
Do you believe in God: Yes

No Classes Today

It's definitely a long weekend for me. We had no classes last friday because it was the foundation day. We had classes last saturday though (we have Rel Ed on saturday..and it sucks for me!). But nevertheless, classes were cancelled today due to the weather. Mr. Frank sure got really angry!!

I was sick though, stuck in bed most of the time. But I liked the rain even though it seemed like the end of the world outside (specially last night). It came with a cool breeze that made the weather comfortable. I was comfortable.

But to some, it was more than just a comfortable breeze that swept by our country. Winds of over 170 km an hour, torrential rains—a typhoon named Frank (internationally known as Fengshen) roared through the Philippines. To tell you the truth, I was kind of happy last night when the president announced that classes were suspended. Suspended classes due to typhoons and other calamities are one of my favorite news. And it's a shame, really. Yeah, I did have a wonderful time today. I had enough time to finish my homeworks and I had fun at my movie marathon this afternoon. I felt really good while I snuggled in my cozy bed this morning because it was cold. I was really contented even though it was raining cats and dogs outside.

But then again, that was selfish. I am selfish. I only cared about myself. What about everyone else? I didn't even realize that while I was enjoying myself at home, some people in other places are suffering. Just like them:

If I said earlier that I had a great weekend..I was wrong.

How about you, how was your weekend?