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Thursday, November 13, 2008

Killing time

I'm starting to hate this day. Stupid! Stupid! I'm currently spending my time in our school's computer lab because we don't have anphylab class. We were supposed to have our Anatomy ang Physiology lab today, 7:00-10:00 am, and guess what? We don't have a prof yet! We waited in the laboratory for almost an hour..for nothing! Then I had to go to the office of the dean because we don't have a prof. He said that they haven't hired the new prof yet. Ugh. The dean was very nice, though.

Anyway, it's still very early and our next class begins at 2pm, so that means that I have 6 bloody vacant hours today. Define bored! Why is it that everytime I have something important to do, i almost always don't have the time to do it? And why is it that whenever i have all the time in the world, I can't think of anything to do except to wallow in self-pity. I feel so lonely. I decided not to go home and come back again for my next class since nobody's home today. My friends are not yet here, we have different schedules, you see. They all belong to the same lab classes so I'm left alone in my different schedule. It's a good thing that my other classmate, Kierstine, also have the same bloody situation like me. All her friends also belong to a different class. We're both left-out so we've decided to stick together during days like these so that we won't have to wander around the campus all by ourselves. Lucky me..*rolls eyes*

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Not what I expected

I just got home..I know, it's a bit late than my usual dismissals. Well, I have to get used to it. We have a lot of subjects that end at 7:30 and 8:00 pm. But it's exciting though, even if it's a little scary to still be out in the streets at night, specially nowadays. And it's also difficult to get a ride during the late hours of the night, even on weekdays. Dunno, but it wasn't like this before..
Okay, I'll stop beating around the bush. Let's proceed to my main topic: BioChem lab--the subject I've been loathing for ever since I read the groupings posted on our bulletin board.

I spent my afternoon sleeping by the way. I was trying to think of something better to do while waiting for my next class, but unfortunately, I couldn't think of anything. The classes just started yesterday so we really have nothing to do yet (except for a couple of assignments which I have already finished due to my boredom yesterday). So I decided to sleep. I dozed for like 2 and a half hours or so. I really can't remember. Anyway, I was able to come to school early with a spare time to check the newly processed books in the library. I found interesting ones by Nicholas Sparks. Unfortunately, the librarian said that they are not yet allowing books to be borrowed for home-use. What a bummer! Anyway...

Okay, I said a while ago that I'll stop beating around the bush..heheh..okay, I mean it this time.

BIOCHEMISTRY LAB

I've been dreading this subject. I know that it's only a 2-unit subject but lab subjects are not as easy as they seem to be. You need skills together with your knowledge. When I entered the laboratory, I already saw what seems to be teacher's stuff placed on top of the table. I froze. The lab instructor is here. Am I late? Well luckily, I saw that the classroom is almost empty except for four very punctual students: Mommy Beth (my 48-year-old classmate), Lara, Joyce and Kierstine. I sat next to Kierstine at the 1st table at the back. But after sometime, I decided to sit next to Lara who is at the front. Then another classmate came in with a bad news: "Si Ms. Berana daw and prof natin sa biochemlab."

What?? Ms. Berana? You've gotta be kidding! Please tell me it was a joke. But it wasn't. It was confirmed when she entered the lab 10 minutes early to ask my classmate to borrow an overhead projector. I know her. I see her all the time. I've been hearing so much horrible things about her. I know her because she's my former guidance councelor's wife. She was my cousin's lab instructor during the first semester. Donna said that she's very strict when it comes to her requirements and she gives low grades. She's the very opposite of my very jolly and affectionate chem1 lab instructor, Mr. Tapay. They say that she's
mataray, strikta, walang sense of humor. Because of that, I immediately went back to my previous seat at the back. I'm really not in the mood to grab the teacher's attetion on our first day of lab. It was way too scary!

When the class started (she's very punctual, by the way), the laboratory was embraced by a deafening silence. My classmates were also feeling what i was feeling at that moment: pure terror. Well, she didn't give us a bad impression. I really didn't find her mataray. My fear wasn't caused by her presence but by all the unpleasant things that my friends used to tell me about her. I can't see any hint of her
katarayan at all! She doesn't smile at first, and she doesn't show any hint of the sense of humor I was dying to see..but as the time passed by, she started giving us some jokes while she was making us recall the laboratory rules and procedures. Her frustrated attempts to make up a decent joke wasn't so bad after all. In fact I appreciated it! I really don't know why, but I just felt that i had to force a little laugh so that she's not lugi with her pathetic joke about the eye-wash. But then after a while, the fake laugh felt real. I just knew at that time that I can learn to like that teacher.

She had a long discussion about the importance of biochemlab blah, blah, blah and I was getting a little bored. My seatmate, Stanley, took out his gum and offered it to us. I thought it was ridiculous to eat in a class of a "terror" teacher, but after refusing the watermelon-flavored gum, I got one and ate it. Stan, Kierstine and Camille ate theirs too. Chewing the gum was difficult because we only did it when Ms. Berana isn't looking. It was fun actually. Not the experience of eating chewing gum, but the experience of breaking a rule. I am not used to breaking school policies. Haha..After her discussion is over, she grouped us into our *gulp* permanent lab partners. I silently prayed for a better lab partner than the one I had last sem (well, levy is a sweet girl but she really is far from being the ideal lab partner). It seems that God was really challenging me at that time because my lab partner turned out to be one of the most quiet students in my class. She is also..umm..let's say..not my "dream lab partner." But I guess I have to accept it. It's final. I guess i just have to work harder for a decent grade this semester.

We still have so much time before the class ended so she gave us a test. It was just an evaluation whether we have learned from our previous laboratory subject. It wasn't that bad. But I was hoping to get a really high grade for our first test but I forgot some of the answers and I had wrong spellings. Oh well, past is past. Move on. Haha..We were dismissed 45 minutes early. But it was 6:45 and it was already dark outside. Fortunately, I managed to go home safely.

2nd day-2nd sem

Ok, this is by far, the worst moment of my 2nd semester. I am currently at home typing this..half an hour ago, i was at school in my Filitwo class which ran from 7.30-10.30 am. I still have my biochem lab class this afternoon. So why am I at home?? Because freakin' biochem starts at 4.30pm. What am I supposed to do for six hours?? So I decided to go home and take a nap, but I was afraid that due to my exhaustion from my filitwo class (3 hours of Filipino class can be really exhausting!), my "short nap" will turn into a deep sleep and I'm afraid that I won't get into my next class on time. I don't wanna be late. I've never been late in my classes ever since i started schooling.

Anyway, I hate this schedule because it's so weird. I'm not used to going home from school and then going back to school again for my next class. I mean, if I stayed at school, what am I supposed to do there??? Rot myself in the library??? Ugh. And by the way, what really pisses me off in this kind of set-up is that our lab classes (anatomy and biochem), were divided into two separate groups. What's wrong with it?? It's because all my friends belong to group 2 while I'm the only one left to rot alone in group one. I really want us all to be together. I wanna be with them too! Specially with Donna, because were supposed to go home together. Wala na akong kasabay magbyahe pauwi!

By the way, our Clinical Instructor announced that we are going to have clinical exposures this semester. Clinical exposure is another way of saying that we're going to have hospital duties..magduduty na daw kami! As early as first year! Whaatt?? OMG! During the first semester, we're already hearing rumors about this, but I never thought that it will be implemented right away. I mean, i know that we'll have to do it eventually, but I never thought that it would be sooner than I thought. The idea of having a duty in the hospital didn't really sink in to me until now. While I was listening to that announcement, I feel like someone's yelling in my head: "This is it! Nursing na talaga 'to! OMG!" At first i was excited, but it was suddenly replaced by a feeling of fear--fear that I won't do good in practical nursing procedures. I know I'm quite good when it comes to academics and written exams, but i don't know if I can survive the real nursing world. What if my skills weren't enough? What if I fail my return demos and practical exams? That thought got me into thinking that "Do I really wanna be a nurse? Am i ready to be one?"

The answer, of course, is NO. I know it deep inside because of the fear that's gripping my heart right now. But then again I thought, "Hey, I'm only in my first year as a student nurse! Of course I'm not ready. Who is??" I suddenly remembered the very purpose of being in school. I'm here because i have to learn. I am here because I am not ready YET. I am yet to discover what my abilities are, to enhance them so that it may be useful in the future. Who knows, I might just be a good nurse after all! Right now, all I have to do is do my best and get rid of this fear inside of me. I have to start learning how to think positively.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Quickie Post

okay..since I only have a few minutes left to use the computer (mom wants me to sleep early), I'll try to make this as quick as possible.

Back to school tomorrow. 2nd sem na..is that scary or what?? Anyway, I'm pretty excited for tomorrow..yeah, I changed my mind. I guess I really do want to go to school after all. Hehe..Why? Obvious reason why students are motivated to go to school: Allowance. Yup. I said it. I want my allowance back. Haha...Well, that's not the only reason. I also wanted to see my friends again and of course, I wanna see the outside world. hehe..After more than three weeks of hibernation (a.k.a. Sembreak), I'm finally gonna be able to go experience life in the outside world (I stayed too much at home during the sembreak. Eat-Sleep-Blog was my life).

Ciao for now. I guess I won't be able to update this thing starting tomorrow specially if schoolwork starts to pile-up. I'm really gonna miss my "sembreak-mode."

Well, that's it. I told you it was quick. Well, gtg. Long day tomorrow!


P.S.
why is everybody claiming to be Edward Cullen's wife??
hehe..just wondering.

To edward cullen's "wives": Peace!! V(^_^)V

Friday, November 7, 2008

Back to normal..soon T_T

"Okay. Don't panic."

That's what I said to myself when I woke up this morning. I really was in a bad mood to start the day. Why?? Because it was only then that I realized that I only have less than three days of vacation. On Monday, my life will be back to normal. I will be facing something that I've been dreading ever since I started this hibernation--school. So why am I dreading school?? 4 words: hectic schedule, difficult subjects. Yeah, I'll be dealing with those 3 days from now. My 2nd sem schedule is a goddamn torture. Aside from having Sunday as my only day to rest (we have saturday classes, damn!), my classes also end at the most ungodly hour. Early classes, late dismissals and a saturday class. How lame is that?? To make things worse, I would have to deal with bloody Biochemistry and bloodier Anatomy&Physiology. Just thinking about those new subjects makes tiny droplets of blood flow down from my nose. Nosebleed! We have biocem lecture, biochem laboratory, anatomy&physiology lecture and anatomy&physiology lab..whew! I can't hide my nervousness.

So there it is..I guess as early as now, I have to condition myself for some serious late night studying if I still want to be a DL.

So much for now..I gotta spend the remaining 3 days of vacation doing what I have to do..and good luck to me for my second sem in college! T_T

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"Sometimes I tend to look at the moon and I tell myself even if we're miles apart, every night when we look at the sky we see exactly that same moon..."
--stat nya sa YM yesterday..yee! I just can't help but post this here.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Online Dillemma

I was up at 3:something am today because of our online enrollment. I wanted so badly to enroll early so that I wouldn't have to line up at the cashier to pay my tuition. After my countless desperate attempts to open my account at the e*wizard, I ended up typing this. What's worse is that when you go to the site, there is something terrible written. The website posted a sign which says:

Note: SERVER IS DOWN FOR MAINTENANCE

It was soooo frustrating! I had the sudden urge to scream at my computer, but I reminded myself that it's 3am and I could wake up the whole house with my early morning dilemma. It sucks! Today is supposed to be the day of online enrollment for freshmen and the site is still under maintenance! UGH. How lame is that?

But come to think of it..I am still luckier than my other block mates who still haven't viewed their grades yet. The online viewing of grades also suck (btw)! Online viewing of grades was last october 30 and some students are still finding a hard time to access their accounts on the school website. They're probably banging their heads now.

Honestly, I'm really not in favor of this online thingy. Why do they have to change the system when the old one still works. They say all of these is for the development of our school..but look at what happened?? It was supposed to make our lives "easier" so that we wouldn't have to come to school to see our grades and to enroll. But if you ask me, I'd rather take the hassle to come to school, endure the heat and line up together with hundreds of students than to have my computer open for 24 hours because of desperately trying to open the e*wiz account. The former involves more effort but it also gives you the assurance that you're gonna get your grades and be able to enroll eventually while the latter gives you no assurance at all.

When I first knew about this online stuff, I was excited to try it. It gave me a positive outlook about my school and the huge development that it's making. I know that it's not just a step further but a huge leap for the school. I mean, how many universities in the Philippines enable students to access to their grades and enroll at the comfort of their own home? A few maybe. The introduction of this technological innovation brought along a promise of a better life (huh?). But when it was implemented, the result was otherwise. But I guess it just needs more time to improve. We're just an amateur at this anyway.

I just hope I can enroll for the next sem. Right now, all I want is to open my account, get done with this online enrollment, print the godforsaken assessment form, and take a bath so that I can go to school later to pay my tuition. When I'm done with it, I could reward myself with a peaceful mind knowing that Im sure I can move on to the next semester. And perhaps I could finally let myself sleep the whole day.


Sunday, November 2, 2008

These are barely true..wala lang 'to!


How will you seriously answer someone in the following situations given?

what if someone (STRANGER) insults you and tell you this:

1. Ang arte mo!
who cares? Even the care bears don't care!

2. mas matalino naman ako sayo!
tinatanong ko ba??

3. crush ako ng crush mo.
so? Kayo na ba?

4. am bobo mo pala sa math!
Okay lang, nurse naman ako..ndi engineer! haha

5. bilisan mo naman!
ikaw kaya jan ang mabagal!

6. ang sungit mo!
sa'yo lang kaya ako masungit!

7. cute mo magsmile.
really? (tapos sasampolan ko ng killer smile..hekhek!)

8. takot ka ata sa kin eh?
why would I be scared? You're just a kitten!

9. Mas mahal nia ko!
so? Sawa na ako sa kanya..pede ba!

10. Ambababa namn ng grades mo!
Bakit sau ba mataas? Anyway, why do you care so much about my grades? Get a life!


WHAT IF SINABI SAYO ITO NG MAHAL MO?
1. crush kita
don't worry..it'll pass! (haha! joke! speechless xempre)

2. Hindi kita mahal
sino bang nagsabi saung mahalin mo ako? Hayaan mo lang namang mahalin kita. Yun lang. (haha..ang drama!)

3. Mahal na kita
*fainted*

4. pakopya namn ng assignment
umm. Sorry, hindi ako tutor e. (why would i let him copy? What impression would i be giving him? Baka abusuhin ako. Haha. I hate cheaters!) <<--charing!

5. crush ko yung friend mo
sino..si Theo or si Jake?? Gay ka? OMG! (haha!)

6. pwede patabi sa upuan mo?
naku, madumi jan! Dito ka na lang sa lap ko..(haha! Ang L ko!)

7. cute mo magsmile.
*smile ulit...then bat my lashes* (nagpacute lalo?? Haha)

E KAPAG PARENTS MO ANG NAGSABI SAYO
NITO?
1. Umuwi ka ng maaga.
ok po. (sabay adjust ng relo..gagawing late ang relo)

2. marunong ka pala kumanta?
you noticed! Finally! After 17 years of existence..napansin mo dn!

3. Hindi ka pwedeng pumasok sa klase!
Thanks mom!

4. Hindi ka pwedeng magka-BF/GF
Fine! Then I won't tell you when I already have one. Pwede namang di legal e. Bkt kailangan mo bang malaman un? Hehe (My mom would've killed me before I'm even done saying this!)

5. maglinis ka ng bahay..
pwedeng ung study table ko lang?

6.bakit ang bababa ng grades mo?
Kala nyo madali ha! Kayo ang mag TheoFun..tingnan natin kng cnong mas mataas sa'tin!

(as if naman gagawin ko talaga to sa magulang ko..di ko kaya no! Haha!)